blast radius

open the forever book
you have

six
seconds

not to read this
unless you must

i promise nothing
but… if you can

enter the garage
where this morning,
early, or
late last night

you blew out
most of your head
and two holes
in the roof

the police said
you would have put
the shotgun barrels
up inside your mouth

paramedics
removed you
the police hosed out
what was left

but they
couldn’t
see it all
or did not want to

i count to six
then start to finish the job, it takes
three hours to swear, sing, pray,
and one more hour just to breathe

while flies buzz
about broken eggshell
the fine curves
of your skull

there’s bone, brain, blood
behind a stack of magazines,
on children’s toys, a bike, a cricket bat,
inside a sleeping bag

it glazes the floor,
the walls

along with particles that were once
your eyes, your ears,
your memories,
thoughts

when i patch
the two holes in the roof
asbestos filters down on me
i guess my turn will come

a periscope
peeps

only the stars
the waves

nothing surprised you
being blown so far

so fast